not a good day

Today has not been a good day.
  I am getting frustrated on so many levels and all I can hear is "it takes time" "be patient" all of that... and today it doesn't help.. it just frustrates me even more..
I don't want to wait... I don't want to do this every day just to do it.. especially if I am not getting results or in today's weight check, going backwards .. then why the hell am I doing it?
The walking is getting harder, not easier ... WTF!  it friggin feels like going uphill, both ways, in the snow, with no shoes on ...  3/4 of the way through my walk it feels like someone is adding weight by the step.  The only reason I don't stop is because I need to get home.
  And now my f***ing computer chair is breaking down on me... because of my weight... so thanks for the reminder... as if I didn't already know.
calorie intake for the day 2045